I wonder wonder wonder wonder who

who wrote the book of love? Who ever it was is surely an asshole. Hard to imagine that i have been removed from a long term relationship for two years now. It was 4 years ago that 911 took place, just seems like all this happened yesterday. When your young, adults will always tell you to cherish your teenage years, college years, ect. How is it that nobody can ever truly do this?

I usually go through life with no regrets. I fuck up, i admit it and no regrets. I do something stupid, fuck it, no regrets. Until now.

I think its high time I admit two regrets.

My first regret is the relationship or lack there of with my child. How did things ever get so fucked up. How on earth did i ever have a child with that person. How did someone that I can't stand, someone who couldn't be anymore different, get me to have a relationship of any kind with her? That is something that will puzzle me for the rest of my life. So regret one is two parts 1. How did i ever have any type of relationship with the mother of my child. 2. Why didnt i fight tooth and nail for every right as a father that i am entitled to?


Next is Kelley...enough said about that regret because it could very well be 50 parts not just two. How did I last 5 years with her? How did i screw up such a sure thing? yea i know a walking confused fool...i get it...